I haven’t been on here in a very long time. But there are some things I want to get off my chest and this is the place I can do that.
I am so tired of having one sided friendships where I’m the one who makes all the effort. It seems that 99% of my friendships are this way or have recently become this way. There is a certain person I considered a close friend for a while, but they apparently did not feel we were close. I think I know why, but I hate that our friendship never really stood a chance from the start all because of a stupid boy. I hate that I gave up on that friendship. I shouldn’t have. I lost one of my best friends a long time ago. It just took me until recently to accept it. I feel so alone. I feel like I have no one I can turn to. I just want someone to be there for me. I want to have a best friend who considers me a best friend too. I had that once and it was the best time of my life. I feel like I haven’t accomplished anything since college. I feel like I will never find a guy who will love me and accept me for who I am. I feel like a failure.
If you read that jumbled mess, you must’ve been really bored. ha. I want to end on something positive, so here’s this: I get to see my favorite person in the world in 3 days. I’m so ready.
Turn chicken nuggets into chicken strips and add tacos and chicken and rice with cheese and this is me. #justbig
(Source: jonwithabullet, via lolsofunny)